Yesterday was the first day of fall. In honor of the new season I did some redecorating. What do ya’ll think?
Yesterday was a crap day for me. I’ve been in more pain lately. Migraine, rib pain from my t-9 disc, fibromyalgia, and just the all over normal day to day pain that I suffer. It never fails that when I’m feeling bad everything goes to shit.
I’ve been having some problems with one of my daughters. She’s 17 now but this has been going on since she turned 14. Now this isn’t my first rodeo raising a teen. There were 3 before her, and while, at times things didn’t go smoothly, all in all what they did is a walk in the park compared to what I’ve been dealing with now. I’m worried that things are just not going to end well for her. She’s young and has so much to look forward to. But if she continues on the path she’s on now….. I just don’t know.
A friend of mine has had a major tragedy in his family. So much so it’s made national news. Being an empath it’s hitting me pretty hard. Without going into to much detail there was a murder and suicide. Obviously it’s a bit more than that, but that’s all I’m comfortable saying.
My PTSD is especially prevalent lately. Good thing I have therapy today. Hoping to be able to get a bit of relief by talking. One of two things will happen. Either I’ll feel a bit better. As my therapist always has a tendency to puts things in perspective for me, which seems to help.
Or talking about it will make it at the forefront of my mind even more and I’ll be 50 shades of a hot mess.
There is also the on going turmoil I’m dealing with at home. Those that know me well, know the kind of crap I have to deal with on a day to day basis. This is not including the issues I’m having with my teen. There is just so much going on that I can’t take much more.
I’ve tried all the relaxation techniques and my mind is just to busy and won’t settle down. I’m having some major issues with sleep. Which for me is normal and part of my PTSD. I am either sleeping a few hours here and there because I can’t sleep through any solid amount of time. I tend to wake up every few hours. If it’s not pain waking me up it’s nightmares from my childhood.
Adding on my lack of sleep to all my stress is making it harder for me to handle it. I’m the type of person that I don’t like to burden other’s with my problems and I keep things locked up.
On to other news, providing anyone is still reading. LOL.. Zoey is finally settling down. She’s getting along with everyone. Well, let me rephrase that. She doesn’t have any “issues” with my other furbabies. That being said, Greyson is 50 shades of angry that she’s back and he’s making it known. I swear my pets are just like children.
This past weekend I got out my camera and was pretty much snapping pics of anything and everything. I captured a pic of my dog Guess, and I can’t help but to laugh every time I look at it.
I thought I would share it with you.
She’s giving me the “look”. You know the one where someone is tired of getting their picture taking. Oh my goodness, it’s just too funny.
I’ve not slept yet and I’ve got a busy afternoon so I had better try to get a couple hours of sleep. Note the word “try”.
Until next time;