You can only make so much lemonade

Life seems to keep handing me lemons. You can only make so much lemonade. I’ve reached the point where even the lemonade is to sour.

I’ve recently started seeing a new doctor. He specializes in pain management and rehab.  I was hesitant the first time I went to see him. Expecting the usual, there is to much wrong with you and I just can’t help you. I’m sorry.
I didn’t hear that from him. In fact he had a game plan.  He was going to give me a series of trigger point shots in my back, do an EMG, and have me start Aqua therapy.  If all else failed another surgery would be on the table. This time putting in my back a sort of pace maker but it shoots electric signals up my spine to help with the pain.

Ok, Shots, EMG, and Aqua PT I had no issue with. Another back surgery wasn’t something I wanted to do but I would keep an open mind.
He gave me a ton of shots from my neck all the way to my butt crack and around my rib cage on both sides. He said he gave me a 100 shots. While I agree it was a shit ton, I don’t think it was a 100. LOL They actually helped. I had immediate relief! I did a few stretches and my back instantly started popping. I was like YEEEESSSS!!!! Don’t get me wrong I was still in a lot of pain. But my pain level went from a 7 down to a 4-5.

Unfortunately the shots only lasted a little less then a week. It took another week to get in for another series of shots.  He now has me coming in every other week for a set a shots.
While I wish it was every week. I’ll take what I can get.

I had my EMG done and the results came back a bit worse than I expected. I knew my left leg was bad, but I had no idea it was as bad as it is. The nerve damage is vast, which in turn is causing damage to my muscles. In other words my leg muscles have started to atrophy. I already knew there was some damage to the muscles as it’s 3 inches smaller in circumference than my right leg.

I also have the beginning of nerve damage in my right leg due to spinal stenosis and maybe a bit from diabetes. He was torn on whether or not any of the damage was from the diabetes. He was positive it was coming from my spinal stenosis.
Honestly at this point either/or, the damage is permanent so does it really matter?

Surgery is no longer an option because of my spinal stenosis. While I wasn’t thrilled with the idea, I liked having an option. Gave me a bit of control with life.  Silly me thinking I could have any sort of control.

I’m still set to start Aqua Therapy. I’ve had my intake and just waiting for an appointment to open up.  I guess they’re pretty busy and have limited time and space in which they are able to do it.

I have so much more to write but I’ll save it for another time, day, or at the rate I’ve been blogging, another year.

Until next time;


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2 thoughts on “You can only make so much lemonade

  1. I’m trying to look at the bright side, but I just can’t see it. Basically we’re doing damage control to try and keep my leg from dying all the way. I can’t do stairs and I have to use a walker when I walk. Things are not good.
    My leg will never get better. We can only hope it doesn’t atrophy anymore than it already has.

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